Here Come The Regrets/Lost One

Away Team,

I miss you. Plain and simple.

I wish you were here because I have so much on my mind and these are things that I can only talk to you with.

We've both been through a lot the past few years we've been apart but I think 2017 is just the worst for both of us, so far.

I'm thankful to be surrounded with friends who are supportive and caring about what I'm going through. But it's still not the same because they aren't you. I still need to filter what I have to say because some of it they might not understand. Only you can understand everything. We have our own language, right?

My thoughts are still so much scattered but I just want to say that I miss you.

And that I'm tired. (Not kill-me-now tired. Just tired.)

I love/hate my job. I like/hate my boss. I don't know anymore. I've been reflecting on my life decisions this year and I don't exactly think they're very good.

Home Team

P.S.

I actually want to be Home-Away-From-Home Team again.

[Teaser] THE MIX THAT WAS FOUR YEARS TOO LATE

Away Team,

So I did mention that I was going over our chatlogs from years ago and realized that we never got around to making a mix for this project. Well, I obsessed about it yesterday and from a measly 6 songs, it suddenly ballooned to 103 (and counting). I still need to edit the list (which I am having so much fun doing, by the way) but I'm excited to have you listen to its entirety. I have no idea how to insert audio files here so let me figure that out first.

Okay, I don't have enough time to figure it out so a youtube vid will suffice. Consider this a teaser of sorts.

Enjoy The Ride - Morcheeba feat. Judy Tzuke

"With the moonlight to guide you feel the joy of being alive
The day that you stop running is the day that you arrive
And the night that you got locked in was the time to decide
Stop chasing shadows just enjoy the ride"

I hope you like it! ~^^

Home Team

This Time Is Over (I SHIPPED KREN)

Away Team,

SHIT HAPPENS! 2^nd day back to work and I still don’t have much to do and since I couldn’t find any good fics to read, I decided to go through our chatlogs on.  AND IT JUST MADE ME MISS YOU MORE.  On  the other hand, it reminded me of things I’ve forgotten we discussed. Like how Chanyer is a Park-Choi hybrid and our SMTown family tree and how this blog was conceived. Also I did not know I shipped KrEn before. And the brain twin moments, how I miss it terribly. X years after conception, none of us still has won the lottery (although I am hoping to get lucky on Sunday) so it’s not like we can go tell work to fuck it and leave just yet.  The chatlogs also made me listen to old B1A4 songs, just because. XD

Looks like I’m always triggered to post whenever I revisit our old conversations. We hated 2014 and 2016 because there is not a trace of those years in here. I don’t really have anything substantial to say but I felt the need to write because I feel bad that this space is being neglected. /sobs/

I do want to use it more often, for reasons and purposes we’ve already discussed prior to creating this.

Anyway, can we plan a vacation together? Like just the two of us so we can roam around and eat and hang out at cafes to talk about everything and nothing. Like we did in Taipei except hopefully we’ll have more money to back us up this time.

I miss you.

Home Team

P.S.

Did you delete anything here?