Away Team,
Just updated my personal blog. Coincidentally, I'm using the same post title because the song played while I was writing both (on separate occasions).
Life. I'm getting tired. And with everything that's happening in the world, I have this nagging feeling that we're all gonna die sooner than expected. I'm being morbid, I know. I've always been morbid but more so now. I'm delaying plans to get pregnant only because I'm afraid of bringing a child into this dying world. Well, that and because I don't have anyone to make babies with. HAHAHA.
I'm also feeling stuck. There have been two opportunities that popped up last April and July but nothing pushed through. I tried managing my expectations but my hopeful and desperate heart was strong. And so heartbreak happened. I think I've 95% moved on now. The remaining 5% has that little flickering hope that their timelines have just been delayed. But I need to put that behind me before I fly to Osaka (in 10 days!!). I desperately want to leave my current job, but I feel like I'm not desperate enough. Or I'm bordering apathetic, which I refuse to happen again. It's been a very dangerous emotion for me two years ago. I need to get my shit together without losing patience on myself, a thing I need to constantly practice. (Lord, give me the strength and wisdom)
So there, a snapshot of how I am currently.
HOW ARE YOU? You've been MIA since June. I hope there's some progress with you, life-wise and work-wise. I miss you. I always do.
Don't forget me,
Home Team
